somebody stop me

it's been almost three weeks, i still feel some bouts of sadness, like crying on the cab from school going home. i even told my textmate last night how i wish there was this certain amount or quantity of tears that i have to shed, like a bucketful or even a barrelful, and after that, just like how one changes clothes, the pain and the dirt just goes away.

an old friend even texted me "just cry if you feel like doing so. i-feel mo lng lhat ng hurt." like duh!i've been doing that for three weeks now and the pit seems to be bottomless.

anyway, i hope somebody stops me from all this ranting because i am close to reaching the borders of insanity. sometimes i feel good in the presence of friends, but i hate it when it's time to go home and start the torture again.

anyway, i am still thankful i still have my officemates to entertain me. isaw trip kmi kahapon sa UP. (barbecue fest in UP yesterday). though i didnt eat much, it was so freaking hot in the parking lot (wow!rhyming!).

i hope somebody stops me or i have to stop it myself?how?secret....i even thought of taking off my vest during the bananaboat ride in subic so that's when it's time for the jetski driver to tip the boat over, i'll be underwater without any struggle for i don't know how to swim. but i figured, these guys, (the ones i am with in subic), are just too good to me for me to cause them a lot of worries. maybe some other time...